2011.

In true internet blog fashion, I'm gonna do a big round up of my year. Bit early to be jumping on this bandwagon, I know, but I'm working 10-5 tomorrow then I have to pack up all my stuff and sleep because I'm going back to Derby on Saturday, eep. But anyway, on with this.

2011 has been a decent year. Actually, it's been a very good year. Nothing too traumatic happened. Obviously, I've still been massively negative and felt like the world was crumbling around me on more than one occassion, but it wasn't situations I couldn't ignore and/or work through. I'm here on the 29th December, two more days of the year to go, and I survived every drama that was thrown my way.

So this year I -

• Signed a housing contract, and am currently living in said igloo like house.
• Passed 4/5 modules of second year creative writing.
• Then went on to pass my referral.
• Went on holiday to Bulgaria with Beau and Rachel. Spent 5 of 6 nights completely blind drunk and kissed boys from all corners of Europe, and danced on a lot of bars.
• Turned 20 and had the world's worst birthday.
• Moved back to Derby.
• Fell for one boy. Then found out the hard way that he wasn't worth it.
• Finally fell for a nice boy. And he's currently my amazing boyfriend. (:
• Went to Carnage and found out most student events are vastly overrated.
• Made fantastic new friends at university.
• & managed to keep the old ones.
• Had my first stand up comedy show. Courtesy of Alan Carr.
• Went to a few gigs. Not as many as in past years, but still enough. I finally got to see Alter Bridge after waiting forever to do so. I also saw The Crave again, and Papa Roach and Example and loved them all.

This year I think I've drank more than any other years. We discovered new drinking holes and spent nights and money on pound VS's, requesting the same songs. I had my first ever academic failure in the form of Focus 2. I cried about in Bulgaria then skipped off out and got the drunkest I have ever been. I managed to pass my referral in September, so all's not lost on this degree. It's been mental on the friendship front. I've been naive, not gonna lie. I went for months not knowing which friends I wanted to keep and which ones I wanted to throw away, and to this day, I'm still unsure about the ones at home. At university, I'm surrounded by absolute stars, and I love them all dearly. Then there's Gary. That boy makes me feel like no one ever has before him and I quite like him a lot.

I started 2011 lying on Abby's living room floor, leopard print knickers on full show, complaining about how I was going to be 20 this year. I've done a lot of growing up and feel like I've taken a tiny step into the real grown up world. I can't spend money on clothes like I used to, I have more important things to spend it on. I've found that just spending time with people that make you happy is better than spending money on things I won't use/wear. I'm starting to be selfish and it's a good thing. It's stopped me over thinking. I don't claim to have had a miraculous change over the past year, but I've grown up. I'm still the same, silly, giggly 19 year old at heart.

So to say goodbye to 2011, one of the best years in a while, I plan to get obscenely drunk at my Derby house on Saturday night and call Gary after midnight to let him know how drunk his girl is. (: After that, I think I'll carry on as I am now, stressing about passing my degree and secretly hoping we'll win the pub quiz on a Tuesday night.

take me down like i'm a domino.

I miss university.

I felt so fed up yesterday. I don't know if it's just because it's that lull between Christmas and new year or whether everything has just hit me all at once. I was supposed to go out with my parents and sister last night, but I opted to stay at home and watch the Made in Chelsea Christmas Special. I don't know why. I can't quite put my finger on this feeling. Truth be told, the novelty of being at home wore off about a week ago and the lack of hours at work hasn't helped. I've been getting so bored and feeling so lonely and welcomed any distractions. Only, there hasn't been that many distractions.

I go back on Saturday. Boyfriend's back on Monday. Thank god. I have been missing him, but I think it hit me a whole lot more last night, and today. I've just been feeling like crap. And the fact that friendships I thought were mended a week ago, clearly aren't. Nothing's changed on that front and it just makes me want to go back to Derby even more. I hate being at home. My parents are constantly arguing at the moment and I feel like there's not a great deal anchoring me to Sheffield. I used to love coming home in first year, but now, I'm staying away for as long as possible this semester.

I can't wait for this weekend. We're having a new years party at our house and a few people are staying over, my sister being one of them. Then new years day I plan to sit on the sofa and watch The Big Bang Theory series three, then horrify my housemate with Horrible Bosses and The Inbetweeners Movie. He gets all overly embarassed when people talk about sex in great detail, so that will probably drive him to his beloved Xbox and Skyrim and hopefully leave me alone for the day. Then on Monday, the boyfriend is back and I'm pretty much moving into his house until further notice. It's slightly pathetic. We've only been together for nearly two months, but we've been 'involved' with each other for about four, and I miss him like mad. He keeps me sane though and I'm always happy and content when I'm with him. Far from what I've been feeling recently, so it'll be nice to get back to that.

But for now, I've got to tackle the exciting subject of censorship and violence for my essay.